I've been a dad for about 18 days now. It is spectacular. It helps that Grayson is calm, loves to be held and rarely if ever cries or fusses. And Kate says he looks like me. It's hard to tell, but sometimes I do feel like I'm looking in a time machine mirror and watching myself as a baby.
I harped a lot on parents who like to tell you how much your life changes when you have kids, and I don't know what will happen over the next 50 years, but life as a dad over the past two weeks has been the best. Neither of us has any idea what we're doing, and we often look at each other and wonder how we became parents and who let us have a child.
Probably the idea that sums it up the most came from Friday Night Lights (which we watched A LOT of while I was home). Coach Taylor and his wife are starting to get into an argument about something their 17-year-old daughter did, and Tami says something to the affect of how they have each been a parent for the same amount of days and hours and therefore have the same amount of knowledge to draw from. What ever happened to maternal and paternal instinct?
Dads do get the easier end of the deal with a newborn though. Moms (for the most part) are the ones getting up in the middle of the night to feed them and changing their lives around to accommodate their child's every need. I do my best to wake up to help out when Kate can pry me out of bed, but she has been great about letting me sleep, since I am already back to work while she stays home for a few more weeks. It seems that is often the case, as the dad works and returns to more of the life he was used to before the baby, getting outside the house, interacting with other adults and getting back to a routine.
My first days back to work were tough. I was blessed with a week off after Grayson was born to be with him and take care of Kate, but leaving him every morning hasn't gotten easier. Fortunately (I guess) he is awake before I would like to be, so I do get to start my day seeing this little guy:
But how can you say good-bye to that face?
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